June Newsletter

Dear Beloveds,

Happy Father’s Day week if you celebrate it. Even if you don’t, perhaps looking into why that is & being curious if any resistance is present could provide access to new awareness and healing around your relationship with your father & the masculine.

The topic of the Masculine and my father has been a lifelong journey of healing and discovering para mi:

• Coming in as a wee babe, 1st there is: What is the masculine & who is this guy holding me because I came out of a woman & you’re not her. So there’s some essential bonding & assimilating to do with this “new person” because this man did not carry me and I know it. Like, who is this guy, why is he the chosen one & what does he provide me? Do I feel safe with him & do I like him?
• As I grew I became a daddy’s girl & we were close. I was ecstatically in love with him & thought the world of him. He was the most incredible man on the planet. No one could compare to my daddy.
• He was able to be silly & we could laugh, we had our own inside jokes & I got to spend time with him if we were doing his things – farm work & race car things. But then as I aged and became an angsty teenager who had no interest in those things, I began noticing all the ways he was not meeting my emotional needs in our relationship. How much I felt alone, abandoned, with supreme unmet needs for his love, attention and energy. It was like, “okay you’re here if I’m doing your things, what makes you feel comfortable, but you’re unable to reciprocate & meet me anywhere outside of the emotions of happy & content.” Therefore I didn’t feel like I could be myself or like we could relate so I began to cut myself off from him, & I felt like he was doing that from me — who really knows though.
• Of course I didn’t have access to this understanding consciously at the time, nor the verbiage to articulate my feelings, and neither did he – or the energy with his state of health – so our bond started to fade, and what little was left of the physical, emotional presence was gone. 
• It’s like we became strangers in body but I still feel to this day that our souls were, and always have been deeply connected. 
• I’ve honored and adored that man perhaps more than what he deserved, but needed. Looking back, I see he needed a lot of empathy for all the shit he was going through & was truly doing his best to keep things together. And me being who I came in as, I pushed him to grow & expand emotionally – or as we’d call it on the farm – I raised hell and truly gave him a run for his money.
• I didn’t make it easy on him. Unconsciously, I pressed my family to open up emotionally and to stop suppressing their feelings. How much this actually worked, I have no idea, it actually seemed to have the opposite effect for a while :/ but I do know that just the fact that I was so emotionally open, vast & complex had their ears perked with a lot of questions, uncertainties & hestitations. They were out of their league & I was trying to fit in a place where I wanted to belong, but at my core, didn’t feel like I did. I typically felt like I was somewhere else.
• I could tell I was different from about 4yrs old and this brought up a lot of shame & strife because naturally, a child wants to belong to their family. But when that isn’t naturally so, it’s like trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. I so desparately wanted to belong, but honestly couldn’t relate most of the time and I think they felt the same way.
• It’s challenging to be the child who chooses to come into a family & wake everyone up to something outside their belief systems, lifestyle, & ask them to be more authentically connected to their heart/emotions & body-self-care.
• It can be lonely and terrifying as you’re outcasted from your original tribe – whether intentionally, unconsciously or not. Where does one go if they don’t feel understood by their blood kin? For me withdrawn, isolated, and inside. Holding a lot in.
• To be fair I know my mother and father and family have done their best to understand the unique, different being I am, and I thank them for that. Even I have undergone much challenge in bringing understanding to myself, someone who is supremely sensitive and empathic and naturally absorbs the energy of others & this Universe for so long & who forever, didn’t have the tools to transform that energy out of my body & back into the world.
• I can still get caught up & tricked by this and end up with weird health symptoms that put me in bed for days.
• Thank God to all my teachers, healer’s and plant medicine I met on my path that provided me the tools, awareness, space and grace to transform my pain into my purpose & live my dharma. Without the contract mi familia provided me, I would not have been able to grow into the sovereign soul that I am, here and able to to be in service of the Love, Light & Healing Lisa Lola Healing Arts purposefully provides.
• At this point I give praise to my father. He was his own person in his own way. He was no bullshit. Honest. Authentic. Consistent. Reliable. Dependable. Had strong moral codes & ethics. Held himself firmly to being a man of his word & doing what he had too for his family, even if he was sick and dying. He was also quite intuitive and tapped in, Spiritually connected and aware – imagine that right? I bow to him deeply for the clean and clear character he instilled in me.
• And yet, as Father’s day is approaching this week, I began to feel agitated last Sunday. I noticed a slight trigger witnessing a man and his daughter interracting, and I felt angry & hurt because I didn’t get to have that. I felt shorted and slighted and it pissed me off. Doing so many years of deep heart opening work & turning my language of fear into love supported me in connecting to what was truly going on for me: My needs for love, attention, adoration, and connection with a man – the man – were ummet. I was able to provide myself self-empathy to connect and heal my inner child wound and grown my inner and outer beloved.

Now for the grand finale, what did father teach me? The darkness is always our greatest teacher toward the light of empowerment, so what does that mean specifically?

• To this day, 15 years later, I am still processing the wound of feeling abandoned by my father, however I have more inner resources to handle the pain and tools to where I can hold the energy with spaciousness, compassion & care for myself. Here’s the core essence of what he taught me:
  • He was truly doing the best he could & had the inner resources to do so 
  • He did love me even if he didn’t say it or act interested
  • I miss him like hell and to this day there is nothing I wouldn’t give to feel his energy, Live, in person again. The lesson that love can carry on, if we’re willing to forgive & let go.
  • And yet, I release the last wish of getting to see him in person again because if that were to come true, I’d lose my most precious gift of all from him:
    • The greatest lesson he taught me when he died, is that there is Life after Death. That the Spirit lives on once the body dies. Not just for him, but as a Universal Law. He showed me this is true for everyone. From that moment my world expanded in a way I never knew possible or had any reference or access too. And I know it’s true because I feel him and connect with him every day. 

So although he couldn’t show up for me as much as we both wanted in the physical realm, he’s doing a helluva job in the astral. 

Thank you papi, from the depths and bottom of my heart & soul: I LOVE YOU.

If you’d like guidance & support in releasing your fears or grievances, or desire support in receiving greater clarity and understanding of your life’s purposeful design, Click Here to book a 1:1 Spiritual Counseling Session so you too can learn how to alchemitize your pain into fuel for your light & get you aligned with the beautiful, magnetic being you are!

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I am pleasured & honored to support you in the awakening & evolution of your Heart & Spirit.

To the expansion of Love,

Lola

May Newsletter

Dear Beloveds,

Happy Spring!

I love this time of year. Everything is turning green & flowers are blooming. I’ve been working in the garden & lawn & loving it. I find it so cathartic to put my feet & hands in the dirt & let myself move my energy into the land. I’m blessed to have a front & back porch, so I hop back & forth from one to the other. Have coffee & meditating on one, writing & having lunch on the other. Grounding in the backyard whenever I want. Being outside makes me so happy & healthy. I love taking extra long walks in the evenings with the pups as the sun is setting. Ahhhh the simple things.

What’s new with me that I feel called to share in this month’s newsletter is that I’ve noticed a dramatic shift in my own personal Magnetism & allowing myself to live in my Radiance and Joy-State. I can feel myself shining brighter & the outer world has been reflecting that back to me through a lot of blessings, heart-felt exchanges of love, compliments, smiles & connection. I know a large part of this is from doing some very deep, life-changing work last year. I finally stood unwavering in my truth & held firm in boundaries I had needed too for a long time. I learned that Love also says NO. ENOUGH. And that I was doing no one any good by enabling unhealthy habits & behavior. Enough space & grace had been given. It was time to take action & finally ‘do the damn thang.’

I had to get real clear with myself so I could get real clear in my relationships. Because they are always a reflection of each other. Once I received the clarity I had been praying for daily, for some periods heavily. In like, all-day-meditational-prayer-typa-things, the answers came dropping in like fallen stars from the sky & because I had been calling on my pride of Lion Spirit animals for courage, I had the fierce-heart energy needed to slay the dragons. It was no small feat but it was worth my life, & saved it. 

Facing our fears is rarely fun & is something we naturally turn away from than toward, but I’ve learned if you want a magical, beautiful, aligned, harmonious life, that typically takes growing your capacity to challenge your own status quo & comfort, be bold & daring, & leap out of your smallness & into the unknown. 

Now being on the other side of that very dark place I’d been in & still consenting too for quite some time, I’ve received the revelation of having access to my Joy. I didn’t even realize I had lost it. But I had, somewhere along the way. Like a slowly dissolving glacier from climate change, it was something decreasing gradually overtime. Hard to notice or capture long enough to realize. I had started to think living unhappily & in distress most of the time was normal.

Now, no longer giving my energy away to the non-sense & drama that fear instills, my life-force is turning back on & turns out, I not only have access to Joy & Living in my Radiance, but I have the autonomy choose it every day — because it is indeed, a choice!

Saying Yes to my Joy & Radiance means saying No to allowing fear or judgment to drive my car.

If you’d like guidance & support in releasing your fears, upgrading your frequency, claiming your Joy & Standing in your Radiance, Click Here to book a 1:1 Spiritual Counseling Session so we can get you aligned with the beautiful, magnetic being you are!

If you are a new client & are interested in working with me, you may book a complimentary
New Client Consult Here.

I also have a course offering coming up called Conscious Communications that starts on June 11th & goes for 9 weeks on Zoom. If you would like to learn the Language of Love:

• Strengthen your ability to express your feelings & needs
• A method to create more harmony & resolution in your relationships
• Increase connection & 
• Deepen intimacy
• Click Here for more info. 

I am pleasured & honored to support you in the awakening & evolution of your Heart & Spirit.

To the expansion of Love,

Lola

April Newsletter

Happy Full Moon in Scorpio amigos,

This is a time of deep healing & psychic amplification. It’s an important week to create comfy spaces for yourself to reflect inwardly & allow yourself to go into your depth. Within each individual exists an underworld. The Full Moon in Scorpio will shine a light into your shadowy caverns & reveal what has been stirring. Perhaps some creep-crawlies &/or valuable gems thriving in the dark. I extend myself to those seeking extra support during this transformative week & provide you with an update of the life-changing process I’ve been undergoing the last 6 months. 

I’ve recently discovered that I’ve been in a decades-long metamorphosis when it comes to transformation in the areas of my creative expression, delight & romance in my life. I knew I was blocked in these area’s before, I was aware of it. But I didn’t feel like I had access or the inner resources to clear the stuck energy. It was just there. Un-moving, unchanging, & seemingly out of reach. 

Now, after a series of what I’d call master initiations, I cannot be slowed down. It’s taken me a long time to get here, where I’m including my needs & unapologetic in my desires for peace, pleasure & intimacy. I’ve been stuck & stagnant in these sectors of my life since I can remember, so do not have the space or time to remain still any longer. 

I must honor the driving energy I feel inside of me to go forward in the pursuit of love, passion, self-expression & creativity; & have made a dramatic shift in no longer allowing anyone or anything to stand in my way – including myself.

I have noticed a major release of people-pleasing take place in the last month – thank you North Node in Aries & South Node in Libra –  as well as getting out of my own way. The experience has literally felt like turning a light switch on & off. A very simple & seamless action. I feel more free, honoring & respectful of mySelf than ever before. Allowing for the dissolve of my & other people’s judgements & opinions of me has dropped a dramatic weight off my shoulders. I have sensed this energy for a long time, but was unaware of exactly where it was coming from. Most likely lifetimes & generations of co-dependency & trauma-response.

Now, no longer holding the energy of what’s not mine, I feel a renewed & vast serene, spaciousness for my next evolution of becoming. I feel ecstatic, excited energy propelling me forward into what’s next that Source has in store for me. Open & curious to opportunities coming from new & different sectors I wasn’t aware of or interested in prior. I notice an up-leveling of autonomy & choice in the design & creation of my life. As well as pure awe & wonder of the fruits of my Spiritual labor over the past 15 years I’ve been on the awakening path. Doing the inner, intentional, self: connection-healing-learning & loving work, truly pays off. And it takes time.

After all these years of compassionate practice & devotion to Truth, I have a defined system of self-care that enlightens my frequency to the point where now I can see & implement how to manifest what I truly desire & serves my highest & best; & have embodied the courage, clarity, values & ethics to do so. 

Now, in clear knowing of the process in how to co-create with the Universe after a multitude of attempts from my own personal needs for understanding, health & healing, I am of the capacity to take right-action that aligns with my soul-purpose to model & share the Frequency & Freedom that Love is. With this world. At this time.

Feeling so keenly aligned to the reasoning of my being-here has given me meaning-making that supports & expands my life, instead of contorts & contracts it, as the current over-arching model of fear & power-over systems deludes. It’s so easy to get lost, confused & resigned. To awaken the heart requires many attempts of surrender & pursuit. The patience for mistakes & error. The trust to not-know & try again.

Devoting myself to Love’s path as a student & now also, as a teacher & spiritual counselor, has provided me the true nourishment that all human’s require to feel alive, happy & free. I feel such gratitude to be resourced with the service & devotional energy to share this “return to home” process with others.

I thank you, from the depths of my heart & being. For being here, & walking along with me. I thank you for your own personal trust & surrender process to awaken yourself & the world around you to Mas Amor – More Love. It is no small measure to open-heartedly contribute to life. 

If you’re ready & yearning for support in the awakening & evolution of your Heart & Spirit, I am here, honored & pleasured to support you on your path.

A good place to start or continue working with me is in my Spiritual Counseling service. Preferably, 75mins or 90mins to provide us the spaciousness to cover all of your needs for healing & expansion. To schedule click the links above.

In Service of Love & Spirit,

Lola

November Newsletter

Dear Beloveds, 

The truth is what is dear & meaningful to me may not be to others

I see that I will assume everyone else is coming from my core values that I not only speak & preach, but walk & continuously seek

That my roots raised in the country grew me up straight like a cornstalk
seeds my father planted over & over again
monotonous repetition of tending, patience, & timing

Rooted in stability
earnesty
humbleness & humility

Praying for rain when too much sun
and then sun when too much rain

Gratitude no matter what
and God serving in all conditions
having faith in the road given

Compassion, love & forgiveness for all
was the harmony humming in the background of my home
creating & sustaining the pace
how to walk with grace

Building my bones into moral goodness
how to offer care & give space

As a little girl sitting in the pew on Sundays
remembering the scripture of Jesus being read on repeat
of original guilt & sin
“they know not what they do” 
and it is often true

So forgive & forget I go
because as I am told
to not bare a grudge or behold

But as I grew I noticed there were many things not being said
a sweeping under the rug became normalized
a habitual response
and the aliveness grew dead

A gap started to form between what I was taught & feeling
I didn’t want to lose my virtue of forgiveness
but no one was talking or teaching
or at least I wasn’t receiving
the steps to get to such a healing

So after each atrocity & attack endured
the burden grew bigger & expanded
the lines became a blur

The weight of not being granted the
tools
time
knowing
or space for me, to process me

Give it to God they said
and so I did
a divine gift & relationship I would never want to perish or regret

But what about all these feelings & words left unsaid?
what about my heart & how it burns with pain so deep I can’t comprehend it in my head?

Swallowing & repression
repression & swallowing
push it down
push it down
push it down was the literature I read

We don’t understand your feelings & your emotions are inappropriate
so quiet I became
and loss was to blame

Clench your teeth
bite your tongue
pull back
pull back
pull back
show no weakness

This space is not safe for your brokenheartedness & hurt feelings
toughen up
“be strong like the cornstalk” would ring in my ears

But the body doesn’t lie & became heavy with despair & tears
hope had left the eyes
and the chest swelled with fear

Sickness & dis-ease grew with a complete resignation to
“this is just how things are, how life is’
no inquiry or curiosity into its source or origination
giving up all power to the doctors, their authority & creation

It’s cancer
we must cut this out
they said

It’s your heart
we must put in this device
they said

You have relapsed
your cancer has returned
again & again & again
they said
we must cut this thing out & radiate you with poison to get rid of the poison 

Ok, they said
you know better than me
you know me, better than me
as they were taught to believe

Desperate for relief & instilled with the belief that God lives externally
so I bow my head & take the punishment instead
I must surrender, trust & believe
have faith & keep going
take my steps everyday no matter the cost
no matter that my body is dying & bleeding
you must
you must keep going

And it’s true that as humans we need to build resiliency
because sometimes people are not nice & the world can be cruel & evil

But one’s own discernment is a necessary skill worth developing

To know when to say enough is enough
this is what I’m feeling
this is what I’m needing
above all potential loss of anything & anyone else
that my heart matters too
and that it’s not all love & light

Yes that is my prayer
my core value & orientation
and we can get into all kinds of philosophical conversations about the distinctions of my current observation 

But exercising my throat & activating my voice 
are necessary & needed
it’s time to step into the courageous part of me that’s been deep inside
often hidden
but waiting for its moment all along to say

This is me
it may not be pretty or what you want to hear
but this is what I need
above all else & your tears
even as my empathetic heart wimpers & wears
this is what’s missing & I need to receive

Standing firmly as the cornstalk
as my father taught me
by model  
but not so much words or creativity

However this is the lineage of family my soul agreed too
there’s no getting out now
and it must be accurate
because I know God always puts me where I am meant to be

So I must carry out the vulnerable & scary duty of speaking to what’s there for me
after all, it was planted in the seeds
I can feel it
a perpetual unstoppable weed 

To not just model the values instilled
but to speak them
give them air
volume
veracity & velocity
if necessary

This is my evolution
grant myself the right to breathe
share & sing my melody
so the words don’t die in me, like I’ve seen

To carry on with potential & possibility
and contribute my core values of love & service, to humanity

Thank you for being here, reading & receiving my prayer.

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October Newsletter

Dear Beloveds, 

I know you don’t know where you’re going right now, & the direction awaits you. 

But soon your soul will find a new rhythm, & the living you called normal will become a faint memory dissolving into the ocean of your past, forgotten & left out at sea to co-create with the life all around you. Patiently waiting to transform & become the dreams you’ve been dreaming.

When we find those things that had only existed as potential possibilities take shape into 3-dimensional form, we at once realize ourselves as more powerful than we previously thought & strengthen our connection to the unknowns path. 

For the not known path is indeed the route we all must travel to know ourselves & discover our True North. 

As scary & horrifying this road can be, not traveling it produces a sense of slow suffocation that deadens the soul over time. Where the light goes dim, eventually resolving into a complete blackness. Where our day-to-day experience can feel like an ongoing darkest, of night. 

A hallow grave of no-thingness. Nothing happeing-ness…just surviving-ness. A life-less automation delivered via disassociation and divergence from the pain of knowing what’s authentic and real.

The Being shifts from organica in nature to robotic. Empty & mechanical. Without empathy in its movements. Without ownership or clarity of mind. Purely driven by external & conditional, survival forces that rob the soul of integrity as fear takes over, hanging on for dear life.

Layered beneath this trauma response is a broken heart that regrets not living while still alive, and those directionless paths you were once scared to walk upon no longer feel close or like accessible options. They exist in a fantasy of some distant future. Options only reserved for others. A time long gone and too far away now to touch or be true.

And perhaps, in some moment. By the Grace of God. The power of prayer. A life-threatening illness. An insight from a stranger or the Sun, a light glimmers into your awareness that ignites your craving for creativity & you seek out knowing that there is no way around the mystery.

That the mysterious paths are the ones that shed the Light & Life required to awaken your soul to courageously once more, challenge yourself to the truth, and approach the path that only you may seek. 

That only you can discover, learn & know, your path of mystery by consistently & courageously showing up for it. Walking day by day, moment by moment, into the directionless path the Universe begs you to permit so that you may receive and celebrate the absolute beauty and stunning elegance awaiting you, in the Unknown. Unique and reserved, just for You.

As we enter Scorpio season, the zodiac of death & darkness. Celebrate All Hallow’s eve today, a pagan religious celebration to welcome the harvest at the end of summer. And are in the midst of revering the Day of the Dead, a Mexican religious holiday where it is said the gates of heaven are opened and All Souls whom have passed may come through to be honored and remembered. We are in potent times to respect and hold high regard for the life that has passed, and the Unknown that is coming. From all darkness, births new light.

May we give gratitude and grace to ourselves and each other. As we walk together, into what only the darkness, may reveal. 

Mucho mucho gratitud mi amors. RIP to the dead and the living.

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