May Newsletter

Dear Beloveds,

On holidays like Memorial Day and 4th of July, I often think of how we celebrate our Independence, those who fought for our Independence, and also what it takes to be Independent. In order to be Independent, we must overcome the Shadow of Co-Dependence and raise our state of consciousness. To be Independent means to rely only upon yourself, whereas to be Co-Dependent means to rely on outside agencies. 

As primitives we relied on outside agencies such as God/s and Goddesses to state our fate, as we did not have the technology and modernization to keep us safe from dangerous natural threats. Because of this we developed a need for an outside authority and thus, created a Co-Dependent relationship with an outside God. Not realizing that God is located within our own hearts and is us. We come from this Divine source, we are a continuous mutation of it. 

The 19th Gene Key by Richard Rudd states that, “As long as man believes in a God outside himself, the frequency of our planet will remain at the level of the 19th Shadow of Co-Dependence.”

I believe at least a part of what he is saying here is that until we begin treating ourselves, each other, and the Earth with love, kindness, and respect, we will not evolve out of the frequencies of guilt, shame, and suffering, which the Shadow of Co-Dependence emits. 

It is not just enough to become Independent on the Spiritual path, as the ego still tends to get pulled into isolating itself to show how strong it is, loudly proclaiming it has no need for help or support. Or it will get stuck in clinginess or neediness in Co-Dependence, projecting its need to feel needed. True transcendence of this Shadow (Co-Dependence) and Light (Independence) is Interdependence.

Let’s first break down Transcendence: It’s moving through all realms to make Whole. Moving through the Shadow and the Light, including and accepting all feeling states, integrating both, to evolve into a new, higher frequency state. In this process, the Shadow is needed as a contrast to the Light in order to recognize itself. It is a necessary part that contributes to Enlightenment. 

To process the Shadow of Co-Dependence means to trust ourselves to care for ourselves, trust others to do the same, allow Spirit to take the wheel in times of uncertainty, and to hold the parts of ourselves that fear abandonment firmly. Often those with large abandonment wounds will become clingy in Co-Dependence as they truly believe they can’t make it on their own. Then to not get stuck in the Light of Independence we must realize that we are not separate from each other or the Earth, and to sacrifice our ego identities that feel safe in over-isolation.

To reach Interdependence, we must give up our hard-earned Independence that names us separate from each other and the Earth, and trust in totality itself. This means to give up all ego identities and our sense of individuality for a higher vision of our own Divinity. The true state of Interdependence is about entering into a state of union with all beings in the cosmos, AKA: state of love and harmony.

To truly transcend human suffering we must recognize ourselves as one with all. Including the Earth and all its inhabitants. We aren’t free until all beings are free. 

I ode a Memorial to all those who have sacrificed their egos for the Interdependence of all.

In Deep Devotion to the Spirit Path,
Lisa

April Newsletter

Dear Beloveds,

I feel as though all I’ve been writing and talking about of late, is Surrender. So much so that I couldn’t bring myself to write my March newsletter because I didn’t want to bore you all again with my ongoing diatribe of the topic. Lol. Not to mention I’ve been introverting and hermitting hard.

But here I am again. It became clear to me that is what is here to write about, and that most of us need a lot of practice in Surrender, because everything in our DNA tells us to go against it. 

My entire 2022, in fact, last 10 months, have been massive and milestone-like lessons in Surrender. Surrender of career, relationships, home, identity, all of it. My entire life has been on the chopping block, and my grief and heartbreak of so much loss (my ego’s interpretation) has held me in chains, resisting the need to let go.

Don’t get me wrong, we cannot bypass the feelings of grief and heartbreak, those need to be felt and fully expressed and loved on, and then we need to let them go and move on. I’ve been getting a lot of great opportunities to practice letting go.

The thing with this process is that it often takes time to process the heavy feelings before we actually feel like we can surrender. There’s typically an internal struggle as our ego hangs on to things being a certain way. After rolling around in that chaos awhile, we typically tire, and then finally, without having energy to do much else, let go and surrender. Then more waves of emotion typically come on, requiring us to surrender more deeply into feeling our feelings. One minute we’re okay, the next minute we’re sore and hurting and back in the turmoil. Depending how big the original blow was, we may fight some more, get into the old habit of conflict, remember how painful it is to hold on, exhaust from the fight again, surrender again, get wrapped up in a lot of emotion, process that layer of grief, come out, see that we’re okay, and it clicks that we can trust ourselves to handle painful emotions and that we’ll live through them. 

Trust and Surrender go hand in hand. We must trust in our own essence to take on what God gives us, and even bigger, we must trust that a Higher Power has us and that we’ll be taken care of no matter what is happening. Most of us do not trust that we’re taken care of by the Universe. Many people say they do and feel they do when times are good and the energy is high vibe’in. But once Spirit throws us a challenge (an opportunity to practice love) most fall into scare-city and lack consciousness. And to be fair, this is hard not to do. We’re not taught how to deal with our feelings and we’re sure as Heaven not taught how to not fight. Learning to trust in God is not just a one time or one tier thing. It is an every day thing that is attained in tiers of experience and integrated Spiritual wisdom. 

To Surrender, somewhere within us, we must trust that we’ll be okay and that Spirit has our back. To Trust we must know that we aren’t in control of this Life game anyways and that the path of least resistance is to let go and flow. 

Practicing Surrender can be applied in all of life’s daily activities and happenings. When someone wants to cut in front of you in traffic. When your spouse leaves you no hot water for your shower. When the waiter brings you the wrong order. When a relationship fades and takes a turn. When you get de-promoted from your job. When catch covid, etc. What I’ve been learning from so much “loss” is that the rejection my ego has been perceiving is really just redirection and re-configuration. Redirecting me to other people, places and opportunities, and reconfiguration of my values, commitments and relationships. 

Another requirement of the Trust and Surrender process is Patience. We must not rush our Spiritual evolution. Meaning, we must bathe in all the emotions that an experience brings up before it is integrated and we are ready to move on to the next step. When we are patient with our painful experiences, Spirit will guide us through the healing process and eventually create a clearing. When we reach the clearing, the energies start to reorganize and harmonize themselves and we begin to feel wiser, more at peace, and clear to move forward. 

Before reaching the clearing it is common to feel bored and impatient and asking what’s next. Often wondering, “is it always going to be this way?” We’ll think we’ve reached a plateau and that we’re done. The energy is never going to change and we may feel stuck. These are all normal feelings. This is the void and you can often feel numb and distant. Being in the void is likened to moving through a dark tunnel or the birth canal. You are literally going through a process of Spiritual rebirth. I had been in the void for many months and I’ll tell you the energies of hiding, playing small, cocooning, fear, nervousness, anxiety, withdrawn, disassociated, and needing lots of rest, relaxation, lots of alone and quiet time and solitude had all been very present in my field. But Spirit kept telling me, “yes this is what’s needed in order to come back out.” I would check in daily to see if it was time to “come out yet” and for a long and grueling time she would tell me no, not yet.

As much as I feared that my wild, courageous, brave and creative Spirit was gone, I had to learn to Trust that I was being taken care of and Surrender to where she was taking me next. The butterfly always emerges from the cocoon.

In Deep Devotion to the Spirit Path,
Lisa

February Newsletter

Dear Beloveds,

There is so much power in waiting when being advised to wait, and doing nothing when being shown no clear answers or directions. I’m loving the snow storm we are having today in Kansas City. It forces nature and us to be still. I’m growing quite found of this stillness, there’s something eerily quiet and special about it. Like God reigns down and says, “stop, be at peace.” Like a white blanket comes down over the land and tucks us into ourselves. 

I’ve had a lot of opportunities to practice listening to this direction by Spirit over the last year. There was this counter energy happening that was difficult to navigate. Business was picking up, and Spirit was saying equally, to slow down and that I must create space to be still and listen.

As I’ve learned more about Human Design (HD), being a Manifesting Generator with an open Crown, Third Eye and Root energy center, I have a lot of energy to keep going and I am very in tune to the needs and pressures of others and the world. Looking back I see that my service is given if I am invited, and I was being invited a lot. I’m one of those who struggles to say no to things, even if I don’t really want too. I guess it’s part of my Christian, farm-life, midwest upbringing. You help each other out, period.

Aside from feeling this intense, external pressure that just comes in hastily from the outside world without pause or hesitancy, and as uncomfortable as that is, it also forces me into creation, direction and purpose, and drives my soul forward in carrying it’s mission of contributing to life. This is a beautiful thing, a thing I often wish to not impose upon or encumber with my Earthly needs, but it doesn’t work without boundaries. 

Understanding, practicing and instilling boundaries is an ongoing thing for me as a (insert all of my Astrology, HD, Gene Keys, Ancestry, Personality Test, etc.) I once had someone say to me that a boundary has been crossed if it’s affecting my inner peace. Wow, this was quite the concept to me. I had a right to inner peace?? Yes! Exclaimed my Higher Self, you have a right to living in peace too!

I’ve been working this line of energy, strengthening the boundary of peace within me. The more I look for it, the more I see where I am in relation to it and I can now feel in my mind and body when it’s been crossed. I didn’t know that racing, looping thoughts was a signal that my inner peace boundary had been crossed — and this was typically, most likely by myself. No one can cross a boundary that we haven’t already done so to ourselves. If we leave the door to the house open, the neighborhood cats are going to come in. When I look for how and where I crossed my own boundary, I also feel a surge of power as I own my actions and see where I missed my own network of signals, telling me, “hey, too far, you’ve gone too far.” 

What’s really wonderful too is that I’m learning that this whole practice can be done with a lot of ease, Grace, and stillness. I’m learning that I no longer need to punish and torture myself over these deeply ingrained behaviors that I have little control over. (Remember that something like 95% of our actions are sub-conscious and only like 5% are conscious?! So how about we give ourselves a break?? I’m saying this to myself too 🙂 And therein lies a big part of the answer —— Releasing trying to control a behavior and shifting into, “how can I bend, blend, and shape-to, and move with this behavior” ? What does this deeply ingrained behavior need? How can I support it? 

Trusting that I am taken care of by a Higher Power & Order is often step 1
That allows me to surrender and flow is often step 2
A new energy pattern often emerges to support the bending and moving with and results as step 3
Step 4 appears as practicing this new pattern given by Source as opportunities of contrast in my life
Step 5 is Integration = All parts coming together as a Whole

Blessed Snow Day to you Earth Angels! Be Still and Know…… 🙂 

In Deep Devotion to the Spirit Path,
Lisa

January Newsletter

Dear Beloveds,

Above all else, I want to see.

Our misuse of words, black and white programming, and not understanding the fullness of what things mean can have us throw speculations, judgements, and ideas around so haphazardly. When we do this we become so disconnected from the truth of love in our hearts and we do our brothers and sisters a great disservice because we are not seeing how that can have a real human impact on them, and thus us, because we are one and the same. When we feel urgently compelled to make assumptions and accusations of what’s happening “out there” we aren’t connecting to the deep feelings and unmet needs within ourselves that created the stories and projections in the first place.

I have been undergoing a very deep teaching in the power of what we think things mean, and how that shapes our beliefs of ourselves and each other, without us knowing whether that story is anywhere close to being valid or true. The power of our minds to create fear and pain is just as powerful as our ability to create joy and love, and they produce vastly different experiences. And we always have a choice in this matter. 

I’ve also really been experiencing the impact of rumors and gossip and how absolutely demolishing and ostracizing that can be for an individual and community. The experience reminds me of when I was in 6th grade and I showed up to school one day and all of a sudden, my friend group of 8 girls who’d I’d been tight with for years, all of a sudden hated me and were putting death threats in my locker. I didn’t understand. I wondered what I did. I came home from school bawling every day for 6 months to my mom because I didn’t know what happened and because of my already built in guilty conscience, thought I did something wrong to create this. Later on one of my friends finally told me that a new girl who had moved to our school told my friends that I had said absolutely disgusting things about them. I was flabbergasted. I had no idea anyone would ever do anything like that. I was shocked, stunned, confused, and so deeply hurt. 

Feeling back into that now, my little girl inside still feels a bit hurt and abandoned by that experience, but the woman in me knows the deep truth that if it’s not love, it’s a call for love. And the new girl, underneath her words of fear, was deeply calling out for love. 

From that experience, it produced new thoughts in me that I had never thought before. I began to create enemy images in my mind about these girls who were hurting me. In my need for protection, I began to say negative and hurtful things about them in my mind, because I was so hurt and didn’t know or have anyone to help me navigate that deeply heart-breaking experience. I felt scared and all alone, not knowing who I could trust. 

Now as a grown wombyn and practicing the laws of Non-Violent Communication Consciousness and a Course in Miracles, I’m really looking at all the ways I have made up things about other people, thinking I know them to be a certain way, denigrating them down to a thing or object, and realizing over and over again:

*That anything that is not love, is an illusion

*That no one can be one thing, we are multi-dimensional beings, and that we are all navigating this 3D world in physical bodies the best we can

*That because we are multi-dimensional beings, we are everything. We are everything we criticize others for, and we are everything we are criticized for

*That we are responsible for not only our actions, but also our thoughts

*That nothing is static and everything and everyone is always changing. So whatever I am thinking about someone at any given moment is never the fullness of the truth of who they are because we are constantly evolving and transforming. Nothing and no one ever stays the same

*As my friend Zac Lyons said to me the other day, “We all have the right to update our story” I love that, it grants us all permission to release our mistakes and lack of love thinking and be who we are in the freshness of every new day, and every precious new moment

Above all else, I want to see from the lens of love. Above all else, I speak from the lens of love. Above all else, I want to hear from the lens of love. Above all else, I want to give you the benefit of the doubt, and I request you’d offer me that same love in return. 

Above all else, I want love to win and believe in its ability to heal the disconnected, divisive, fear programming that was never ours to begin with. 

Above all else, I want to see myself from the eyes of God, and I want to see you that same way too.

In Deep Devotion to the Spirit Path,
Lisa

December Newsletter

Beloveds,

Just a quick note to say…

Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Kwanzaa! 

I so enjoy this time of year. A time the world encourages us to celebrate joy, peace, love and connection.  and the light of consciousness.

With all the twinkling lights spread around town and in homes, it reminds me of the steady, undying, unchanging, light within us all. How, when we expand the light of consciousness within our own hearts to include more love, we grow and heal, and thus the world shines more brightly. 

I wish you a wonderful holiday season of gratitude, peace, joy and an abundance of love beloveds!

All my love,
Lisa