Updated on January 23, 2018
I can’t believe it’s already been a YEAR since I first started Lisa Lola Healing Arts – WOWZERS!! To think about everything that had to happen, what had to be thought of, meditated on, dreamt about, imagined beyond all realms, pondered and discussed at length, is truly a Miracle.
What’s even more, was developing the ability to trust, trust, and trust again, that it creating this business was going to work out. In the developing months of creating Lisa Lola, I was beckoned to create a whole new relationship with trust – I had too in order to be a success. I didn’t call in trust though, it called in me. And even more accurately, it was like it was always there, waiting for me to align myself with it. Really, trust was not something I saw in my mind that I “had to do,” it felt more like something that came along that I innately knew how to do, and simply did it like I would drink water if I were thirsty. There was this felt sense of coming home, like aw yes, trusting feels right, I’ll go with that – without “thinking” about it.
I have seen within myself, friends and colleagues, this same occurring happen. When one lines up with what they truly believe and feel to be their “work” “mission” “purpose” in the world, trust is right their waiting for you to sink into. Did my mind still go haywire and have doubt, fear, and “all the things” come up? Yes, of course! But what still remained was this feeling in my body that I could trust in myself, in Spirit, in what I felt to be my calling, that it was all going to work for me, in one way or another. So I just kept – and keep – coming back to the feeling of trust I have within myself.
And I’ll tell you what, when you connect with the trust inside of you – which is one in the same as trust in the Universe, God, Spirit, the Divine – the possibilities are endless! And I do mean endless! When you come into alignment with yourself, you’re coming into alignment with God, and inside the God space is where all of the abundance, joy, bliss, Magic and possibility of Miracles can occur! All within the limitless space of the Universe, can we make manifest that which we desire. That is our ability as sovereign beings.
Creating Lisa Lola has given me so much. It established a platform for the building of my Faith. Faith in myself to show up for myself, for others, to be of service to myself and others, and to truly take care of myself inside of whatever experience I was having. Learning to honor myself and my needs moment by moment, to go inward with myself, show myself endless amounts of compassion and forgiveness, something I never had access too before. And by access I mean something I never had full awareness or consciousness of, therefore I couldn’t get to it, it was either fully or partially in my blind spot.
To love, love, LOVE myself in all of my ways of being, in all expressions, emotions, sticky situations, self-sabotage, fear, anger and doubt. To continue to show up for myself, time and time again, even when I didn’t want too. While in the amidst of countless breakdowns, cycles of depression, and daily anxiety, TRUST that all was in Divine order. That I would come out of what I was going through eventually, and I would fully allow myself to be inside of the experience to see, feel, learn, and heal what was crying out for my attention. To hold myself and let go of the timeline I had created for my healing. “I will be fully done with this issue by the end of next month and ready to tackle the next thing.” HA! How many times I fooled myself going around this linear merry-go-round. What a trip! And it still continues to be. A Trip. A Journey. An adventure I savor being on with myself and whomever else I line up with energetically. Enjoying the ride – for however long it goes!
So Happy Anniversary to me! A time of celebration around the holidays. May we all take the time to celebrate ourselves, our accomplishments, our breakdowns and falls into the shadow, only to emerge again, stronger, more embodied then before.
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Love & Light,
Updated on August 5, 2017
I haven’t written in a while, and while journaling this morning, I had this message come to me seamlessly. It flowed effortlessly – and almost thoughtlessly. It felt more like it came from the knowing of my essence. I share it with my soul in tact, as an expression of what simply, is.
Being in love with me
Being me is the way to be
Back and forth, round and round
I go, around the wheel of being me
Some days it’s hard, other times not so much
But nothing really changes as I’m still me
In whatever way I be
The truth is I’m still me
Sad, strong, happy, mad
Still me as I be
Not something else
Not something fabricated and unreal
My emotions may be expressive
My attitude may sway
Over the changes that be
But I still stay me
Underneath all the self punishment, hatred, and shame
I am still the best I can be
Deep down I’m still looking for self love
Deep down I long for peace
Around this merry-go-round that is me
I am me
And how lucky is that to be
Me, a person unlike anyone else
Oh what a joy it is, to be nothing but me
My desire in sharing this message, is to reach those who resonate with the merry-go-round of emotions associated with “finding the Self” in each of us. For those deeply entrenched in the journey of accessing Self Love and Being. Being as one in their authentic expression of Self. Loving one Self without limitations, barriers or judgements. The felt sense of Being as one is, is so simple, yet so convoluted in today’s world. How do we break through our ancestral heritage, karmic lives, hurt feelings, societal pressures, advertising messages, environmental influences, peers and familial obligations to access the True Being that we were brought into this life to be?
The way I have found is to get back to the basics. Thinking from Self, listening from Self, speaking from my own heart and not that of someone else. How do you know if you’re thinking / speaking / listening from Self? Drop into the felt sense of your body and see how something you think “feels”. How something you hear “feels”. How something you say “feels”. Does it feel like you? Or does it feel like someone or something else? Something true or made up? Does it feel Heavy? – Full of criticism, indecision, or should doing. – Or does it feel Light? – Free flowing, full of ease, joy and love.
People often ask me how I came to creating my own business. How did I shift from a traditional 9-5 that I no longer enjoyed or fit me, to being my own boss, making my own hours, and being a direct extension of the loving me?
I got back to Being Me. I discovered that the unique energetic essence of me is unlike any other. That my specific vibration is meant for something Great. And that something great, can be any possibility in the limitless universe that I desire. Anything that resonates for me, that lights up my soul and sings my song. And that creating anything from this space – the Being of my frequency – has no option but to be perfect. To be great. To make a difference and be impactful. Perhaps only to me, a select few, or the whole world. Really doesn’t matter, just so long as I’m a living full expression of Me.
I have been learning that, if I am Being Me, the universe expands, opportunities arise, possibilities are limitless, and life flows with an abundance of ease, joy and glory. All because I am Being Me.
So here’s to you Being You. And me Being Me.
If you’d like to chat more about accessing the Being of your Self and Self Love, send me a message in the Let’s Talk form below, I’d love to hear from you and learn about the beautiful, unique essence that is You.
Love and light beloveds ~~~~ AHO!
Updated on August 5, 2017
I recently had this conversation via text with a friend of mine who is a fellow healer. Odd right? People think as healer’s we have “being healthy” figured out across all realms – physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual. But we don’t. We’re figuring it out, going through the motions, on our own journey just like everyone else.
My friend / fellow healer will remain anonymous, but here is an excerpt from one of my texts in our dialogue.
“I haven’t accepted that I can’t just eat a little bit of sugar. A little usually turns into more, and then more the next day, and the next day, and the next day, and then more quantities each time! UGG! What’s it going to take for me to commit to a healthy lifestyle for myself? Because I know it’s my access to less anxiety, less being in my head, more peace within myself, more time for rest, play, intimacy and creation. Why the hell am I still blocked to committing to this for myself?!”
Because “just committing” to not eating sugar doesn’t work for me. I’ve tried that. Numerous times, in numerous ways, and the reality is, it just hasn’t stuck. Perhaps I’m not ready to give it up. Perhaps my mental or emotional body still needs it for some reason I am not conscious of yet. Even though I wake up in the morning ready to be done with it, a lot of times by end of day I’m wondering about it, if I’m going to eat it, and if so, what version. This is definitely a current blind spot, one I’ve been looking into and “working on” for a long time, and it has gotten better, but sugar does still hold a charge for me. Just like alcohol does for some people, or cigarettes, or cannabis, or shopping, or sex, or whatever form one’s attachment may come in.
What I’m discovering is that this attachment is covering up something else. It’s distracting me from feeling something, because the sensory overload I get from sugar often numbs out whatever emotions or things are at the front of my experience I don’t want to deal with. And feeling whatever is there scares me, even though I don’t know what it is. So fear of the unknown. The “thing” of what it is, may not even be anything that scary. I’m inclined to think it’s just the process to finding out what it is that scares me the most.
Am I ready to give up sugar? I think the more accurate question is, am I ready to acknowledge my emotions and give them a front row seat in my life?
I want to yell YES! But I also want to be realistic.
I am ready to begin intentionally making space for my emotions as they arise. And that is it for now, I didn’t learn to walk in a day, so I acknowledge that’s all I can commit too, for now.